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What is my purpose in life? Honestly, I have one million answers to this specific question. However, as much as this question runs through my mind, how I could respond is limitless. I am a multifaceted individual. I am living proof of how diverse and ever-changing we, as human beings, can be. Life comes with many experiences. 

The best way to describe my purpose would be to describe who I am. Rather than explaining to you who I have been or who I want to be, I want to tell you who I am. Right now, in this present moment, I am sitting on my bed. My computer is propped on a pillow, music is playing through my headphones, and I am feeling elated. I feel like my purpose is this, writing this very essay, explaining who I am, and why I deserve to be alive. 

I want to tell the story of my life’s greatest event. It truly all accumulated last year, the past, the present, and the future, and I could feel the question burning my mind. What do I want my purpose to be? Due to the circumstances of my childhood, I had only been taught to neglect myself. I had not truly thought I deserved a future. Endless opportunities are awaiting me. I had a realization, I was not living my life at all. I needed to make the effort, in every moment, to choose my life, to choose my purpose. So I made the ultimate choice, to let go. I let go of my family, my friends, and my home. I wanted to make a choice so permanent, so scary, that I could never go back. I moved from Utah to Indiana to learn. 

I am learning what my purpose is, in every moment. I have been living here, in Indiana, for 90 days. I have changed in ways I never dreamed were possible. I know that learning is just the first step, of many, to living my purpose.